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To The Woman Who Comes After Me

To the woman who comes after me,

I don’t know you, but I know the version of him you’re seeing right now. He’s charming. Attentive. He probably texts you good morning and good night. He says all the right things—talks about soulmates and how different you are from anyone he’s ever known. He moves fast, but it feels like magic, right?

That’s how it started for me too.

He made me feel like I was everything. Like I’d been chosen. And just when I believed it, the ground began to shift. Slowly, then all at once. The compliments turned into criticisms cloaked in “concern.” The stories didn’t quite add up. I began to question my own memory, my own instincts. He was always the victim, even when I was the one in tears.

He served chaos for breakfast, garnished with guilt, and called it love.

You might start to notice inconsistencies. The sudden mood changes. The private messages with other women that he’ll swear were innocent. If you try to talk about it, he’ll make you feel like you’re overreacting—or worse, like you’re crazy. He’s good at that. He made me apologize for being hurt.

You cannot keep up with a man who has no self-control. I promise you, it is painful, it is raw, and it is ugly. The chaos transpired into a vulgar and disgusting ending where he would continue to visit his casualty—just to see how far he had come, to impose more damage. And once he got bored, he moved on to the next victim. And so the cycle continues, leaving a trail of broken relationships with already broken women. He chooses them deliberately. If you think you’ll forever remain confident, he will tear you down into pieces. He will not stop until there is nothing left.

Weak people chase pleasure. Strong people chase purpose.

Let me tell you what a narcissist really is: It’s not confidence. It’s not charm. It’s a deep, fractured identity hiding behind arrogance and manipulation. Narcissists crave admiration like oxygen because deep down, they feel worthless. They construct a false self to hide their insecurities, and anyone who gets too close becomes a threat. They lie, they cheat, they twist reality—anything to protect their image. They don’t connect, they control. And what they call “love” is just another tactic to get what they want. There is no empathy. No accountability. Only blame.

You cannot and should not give a narcissist any chance. No contact is the only way to starve them. They cannot go without their supply. Their ego is so severely damaged, and their unresolved childhood traumas only add fuel to the fire. You are dealing with someone who needs attention and admiration 24/7. Your goals, your emotional needs—they mean nothing to him. He doesn't know how to love. He describes love as a feeling, forever chasing “feelings.”

You cannot change a narcissist. You will only lose yourself in the process. Their mind games are out of this world. The subtle deception. The never-ending gaslighting and love-bombing. It is exhausting. The only time they feel worthy is when they get their temporary high. They chase pleasure. A fast-paced, impulsive, irresponsible, all-in-the-moment "quick fix."

One woman could never satisfy the narcissist.

As for couples counseling? The narcissist does not want to change. They have no desire. They will manipulate the situation—and even the therapist—into believing that you are the problem. It is a no-win situation.

Looking back, I thank God I made it out. I feel sorry for all the women he has abused and used. And as for the ones to come—I am fighting for you. It ends with me. One day soon, he will meet his destiny. He will never hurt another woman ever again.

With truth,
Someone who lived it

Dancing With The Devil

He served chaos for breakfast, garnished with guilt, and called it love.

Weak people chase pleasure, strong people chase purpose!

You cannot keep up with a man who has no self control. I promise, it is painful, it is raw, and it is ugly. The chaos transpired into a vulgar and disgusting ending where he would continue to visit his casualty to see how far he has come and to impose more damage. Thereafter, once bored he just moves on to the next victim. And so the cycle continues, leaving a trail of broken relationships with already broken woman. He chooses them deliberately. If you think you will forever remain confident, he will tear you down into pieces. He will not stop until there is nothing left.

You cannot and should not give a narcissist any chance. No contact is the only way to starve them. They cannot go without their supply. Their ego is so severely damaged and their unresolved childhood traumas only adds fuel to the fire. You are dealing with an individual that needs attention and admiration 24/7! Your goals, your emotional needs means nothing to them. They don't know how to love. They describe love as a feeling. Forever chasing "feelings."

You cannot change a narcissist. You will only loose yourself in the process.  Their mind games are out of this world. Their subtle deception. The never-ending gaslighting, love-bombing. It is exhausting. The only way they feel worthy is when they get their temporal high. They chase pleasure. A fast paced, impulsive, irresponsible, and all in the moment "quick fix." 

One woman could never satisfy the narcissist!

As for couples counselling? The narcissist does not want to change! They have no desire. They will manipulate the situation and the therapist into getting the therapist to believe that you are the problem.

It is a no win situation.

Looking back, I thank God that I made it out. I feel sorry for all the woman that he has abused and used. As for the ones to come, I am fighting for you! It ends with me! Soon he will meet his destiny. He will never hurt another woman ever again!!!