Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.

A New Beginning

God, thank you for protecting my heart from cowards.

Thank you Lord for healing my heart so that I do not attract future narcissists (cowards).

It must take a really special kind of *insane person to want to intentionally hurt and plan the downfall of someone else.

News Flash*

I will forever remain strong. I will fall time and time again, yet I will rise rise rise!!!

These past 5 months has been somewhat unimaginable. Having to deal with everything on my own. One tragic journey of a warrior who refuses to be a victim! Other peoples actions has nothing to do with me. I will not take accountability for their actions. We have choices everyday. I choose peace and healing over chaos and violence.

• I lost my mother. The most important person in my life. I grief every day for you. 
• We lost B-dawg. Our healer, and protector. My beloved "co-worker."
• Narcissist Alert* I dated a cheating, lying narcissist. A coward.
• Narcissist Alert* I "lost" my job because I chose to put my daughter first. 
• Narcissist Alert* I witnessed violence and at times I was even at the hands of those monsters. 
• My daughter was taken away. 
• Narcissist Alert* Healing from the narcissist after the final break-up.
• Raped and assaulted and defamation of character.

Most people would not survive one day in my life. Yet, I have God. He fights for me. He strengthens me. He loves me. He has great plans to prosper me, not to harm me. To give me hope and a future. The maker of heaven and earth is the One who strengthens me. It is He who gives me joy. I refuse to walk by sight. I walk by faith. It is undeniable that the thief - Satan - comes only to kill, to steal and to destroy! It is evident. You are predictable Satan and you will lose this battle! I am sober, and I am vigilant for my adversary, Satan, is walking around like roaring lion looking for someone to devour! Lets I  remind you Satan, you are dealing with The Lioness! 

My God did not give me a spirit of fear, but of love, and of power, and a sound mind! Greater is He that is in me than you who are in the world. I am wearing the full armor of God! I will overcome by His spirit! No weapon formed against me shall prosper. Every tongue that rises up against me in judgment, I shall condemn. For it is written Satan! Do not rejoice over me my enemy, when I fall I will arise. I love you my enemy. I bless you my enemy. I pray for you who spitefully use and persecute me. 

Jesus, you are my battle-ax and weapons of war: For with you I will break this nation into pieces; with you I will destroy kingdoms. I am more than a conqueror through You who loves me. I refuse to take revenge myself. I have given room for God's wrath to take over. Vengeance is Yours God, and You will repay! For the Lord my God is He who goes with me, to fight for me against my enemies, to save me. I am not terrified of them; for the Lord my God, the great and awesome God, is with me. 

He surrounds me. He has given his angel charge over me to keep me in all my ways. In their hands they shall bear me up, lest I dash my foot against a stone. Blessed is the Lord my rock. He trains my hands for war, and my fingers for battle -  my lovingkindness loving God, and my fortress, my high tower, stronghold, and my deliverer, my shield and the only one in whom I take refuge, who subdues people under me. 

The Lord is faithful. It is he who establishes me. It is He who guards me from the evil one. My God will cause my enemies who rise against me to be defeated before my face; they shall come out against me one way and flee before me seven ways. For whatever is born of God overcomes the world. My faith is my victory.

Satan, you have forgotten: 

Ελενη, means light!

Nothing is secret that will not be made manifest; nor anything hidden, that shall not be known and come to light.

For it is written! I submit to God. I resist you Satan. You must flee from me! God has given me authority to trample on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy, and nothing shall by any means hurt me.

In conclusion:

Psalm 91

1 He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High
Shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.
2 I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress;
My God, in Him I will trust.”

3 Surely He shall deliver you from the snare of the fowler
And from the perilous pestilence.
4 He shall cover you with His feathers,
And under His wings you shall take refuge;
His truth shall be your shield and buckler.
5 You shall not be afraid of the terror by night,
Nor of the arrow that flies by day,
6 Nor of the pestilence that walks in darkness,
Nor of the destruction that lays waste at noonday.


7 A thousand may fall at your side,
And ten thousand at your right hand;
But it shall not come near you.
8 Only with your eyes shall you look,
And see the reward of the wicked.


9 Because you have made the Lord, who is my refuge,
Even the Most High, your dwelling place,
10 No evil shall befall you,
Nor shall any plague come near your dwelling;
11 For He shall give His angels charge over you,
To keep you in all your ways.
12 In their hands they shall bear you up,
Lest you dash your foot against a stone.
13 You shall tread upon the lion and the cobra,
The young lion and the serpent you shall trample underfoot.


14 “Because he has set his love upon Me, therefore I will deliver him;
I will set him on high, because he has known My name.
15 He shall call upon Me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble;
I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life I will satisfy him,
And show him My salvation.”

I can't but my God can! 

FYI

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.

PLEASE EXCUSE ME while I grief my mother, while I heal from those who tried to kill me. To kill my spirit. Whilst I grief not being able to see my daughter. Loss and Loss and Loss. Please excuse me while I deal with everything on my own because giving up is not an option.